Happy 2020! 🎉

I always make New Year's Resolutions.

I never keep them.

Usually, I have resolutions that revolve around 3 primary themes.... Be a better: 1) wife, 2) mother, 3) teacher/minister/whatever-my-job-is.

So there's no wonder I can't keep them! I constantly aim to be "better" - which, sure, sounds noble. But in reality, all these kinds of resolutions do is reinforce the fact that I don't think I'm a good enough 1) wife, 2) mother, 3) teacher/minister/whatever-my-job-is.

This year, I've given up on resolutions. Instead, I have 3 things I want to focus on. 1) Taking care of my skin. 2) Reading books for pleasure. 3) Try out some new recipes.

These aren't things that will make me a better person. I've decided that I'm already pretty amazing. (If you had ANY idea how hard this is for me to say... As an Enneatype 1 - perfectionist/reformer, my go-to feelings are anger and resentment, and they are most often directed at myself. The whole I'm-my-own-worst-enemy rings stupidly true for me. I am constantly in judgment of myself.) But these three things I'm focusing on make me feel happier. And I've decided my happiness is important in 2020. It's way more important than judging myself harshly and low-key degrading myself when I feel like I'm not measuring up.

So my prayer for you in this new year is that you will find things that make you happy, and that you will do more of them. Because honey, you deserve it.